Thursday, October 17, 2013

Back and Forth

Sometimes it rains shit when you're stuck outside looking up.

The cat started the day puking chunks of chewed Nerf bullets in various places on the carpet. Always the carpet.

In solidarity, the dog puked on the rug twice. At least I could pick the rug up and throw it into the washer.

Nick got so sick I had to take him to the doctor. The doctor put him on prednisone, saying he wanted to keep him out of the ER for this round. No school for Nick. Probably no school tomorrow. The downside is that Nick's breathing is still rough, he's jittery from the steriods, and he's more emotional than usual. At least he's breathing a little easier.

I was making my second trip to buy stuff for the Boy Scout Awards night coming up when I got a call from Mike.

He's in the hospital with chest pain. Yes, chest pain. Plus, some enzymes have indicated that his heart is in distress. Tomorrow, he gets a cardiac catheterization. I learned how to spell 'catheterization,' didn't I? I'm not sure.

I haven't returned phone calls. I didn't show up for stuff I'd volunteered to do. I did drive back and forth between my sick boy at home and my sick man at the hospital.

Overnight, my life has changed. I loved the life I was living yesterday. It drove me crazy. I'd been foiled more than once while trying to shop for the awards night. I'd managed to get into the city for jury duty and been excused just as quickly. I was always running late because life ran too fast. Sometimes, I argued with one or the other of my two favorite guys. We didn't always agree. We loved each other though and sometimes our predicaments were funny. Life was a comedy.

Today, nothing is certain except that I expect the house and the hospital to still be standing when I pull into the driveway. I'm kind of stunned. I'm running on automatic, surprised that I still know how to breathe let alone drive. I've said 'I love you a dozen times today, cried, prayed, yelled as I drove my car as carefully as I could, and finally, just showed up at one place then at another then back then back again. Tomorrow, I'll get up and do the whole circuit again.

I'll do it as many times as I need to. Back and forth. Back and forth. Back and forth.

Thank you for listening, jules

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